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#TBT

It's Thursday and it's exactly 4:15 am in my clock. I woke up very early with the intention of finishing my assignments but God woke me up for another thing- Throwback Thursday. My thoughts go out to you.

I look back the three years I've spent for the Lord and their would be many faces that would cross my mind. Some of them from the very beginning of my walk with God and some, who came to my life just recently. You are in my thoughts. As I do this #TBT, I look back if there are things I've repented(not regretted) doing after 3 years. Spending my life for God's glory- I will never repent that but if there were here are some:

"I wish I gave my best when God asked me to."
"I wish I was more loving, patient and gentle at that time."
"I wish I did not gave up so easily"
"I wish I was more watchful at that time."
"I wish I listened more to God."
"I wish I obeyed first before I complained."
"I wish I took risk."
"I wish I was more grateful."
"I wish I told you more how much you are loved."
"I wish I said sorry more."
"I wished for humility."
"I wish that I was stronger."...
And my list goes on... As more people have come and gone, it lengthens. Some stayed and some have moved on. I repent. Repentance was never just an emotion when you wish you could turn back time and have a do over. Its also doing some thing. So, everytime a person leaves this ministry- I learn. Experience have always been a hard and painful teacher. But still I learn. I grow more and I have not stop learning even now.

So in my #TBT, I would like to take the opportunity to say some of the words I wished I have said out loud than keeping it inside.

"I'm Sorry." 
If I have offended you with my words and actions, please forgive me as Christ did for us. Sorry for my misgivings and lackness. I will never be perfect. Only Forgiven. But there were also times that my words did not just offended you but could have set you free for they were the Truth (at times the truth hurts and offensive). Though I am asking for forgiveness- I never regretted speaking the Truth. Kung pwede lang na in the process di ka masaktan at mawala, yun lang. I'm sorry if part of you might have felt pressured when you were with. I was and still am under process and I was hoping to walk it with you. Sorry If I ever made you felt that way.

"Thank You."
 You were a big part of who I am right now. We could have met before- short man or long ang pinagsamahan. You left a part of you in me and you also took a part of me with you. Thank you- for the smiles, laughs and even tears. In discipleship, I was never just a teacher, most of the time I was a student of your lives. :D I've learned to take risk; compassion; real love and more. I hope to learn more.

If you have received this link for my blog, it means you are one of those people. Please when we see each other in the future, please do not be shy to approach me. I will never be with you. You are still in my thoughts and prayers. Never kayong nawala. If you feel like we are talking about you even if you are not with us anymore- it's because only important people are worth talking about. And you are Important. You are and forever will be important for God. I hope that when you were in my company you felt loved and if ever you felt rejected, again I am sorry. :'((( It was unintentionally. I hope that when you remember me, masaya kayo the way I am joyful of having the opportunity of knowing someone like you. God bless you! #solideoGloria

"I don’t want what you have—I want you. After all, children don’t provide for their parents. Rather, parents provide for their children. I will gladly spend myself and all I have for you, even though it seems that the more I love you, the less you love me." 2 Cor. 12:14-15



















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