Sometimes I get frustrated in discipleship.
My frustrations might seem directed towards people but its actually the FEARS thats eating them alive.
I am angry at that. I really want to send them back to where they belong. I mean the Fear ha? Not the person!
But at the same time you feel very helpless to help the person.
You can't help someone unless they want the help.
You can't help someone unless they want the help.
In my reverie, I thought of one of my rhemas lately in prayer. It was Peter walking on water in Matthew14:27-31.
As I dwell in the Word, I also felt what Peter was going through.
Have you ever tried wanting to experience something soooooo amazing it requires something from you really crazy?
I dont really know what Peter's intentions were when he decided to step out of the boat and walked on water. It might have sounded like a way for him to prove it was really Jesus walking on water. So he asked Jesus to call him out and Jesus said, "Yes, come."
(But as for me in my current walk with Jesus its simply this: I JUST WANT TO BE WHERE JESUS IS.)
Even if I have to step out of my own personal boat of comfort zone and safety and walk on the waters of risk and uncertainty.
I held on to these words: "Take courage, I Am Here."
Thats all I ever wanted in this life really. If someone would ask me where I've been, what I am doing now or what I will do in the future, it would be simply going where Jesus is.
Like Peter I have many stories of strong winds and waves and sinking in. Many times I have prayed the same prayer as he did- "Save me Lord!"
And many times Jesus also held my hand and reached out and grabbed me from my struggle. Each time was a reminder that I had doubted Him and my faith is still little.
Many of us we want to experience "walking on water", or to "taste and see" God's goodness in our lives yet we refuse to step out of our own personal boats.
We want amazing TESTimonies yet refuse to take the TEST.
We desire a powerful MESSage to share to others yet we are so afraid to let God deal with the MESS in our lives.
We want the PROMISE but not the PROCESS.
We want the PRIZE but not pay the PRICE.
We want to "Taste and See" God's Promises in our lives but don't want to Obey His Commands.
Its like wanting to accomplish your Dreams by remaining asleep and hoping when you wake up its already there.
We want to travel but refuse to buy a plane ticket or getting a passport.
We want to graduate but we slack off in school.
We want to see our families won in Christ but we don't dare live out and share our testimonies and the Gospel to them.
We want to have Christ-centered marriages but refuse to allow Christ to do WHAT, WHEN, WHERE, HOW AND WHO in our relationships.
We want for God to provide our daily needs yet we refuse to be in need and be empty.
We want Bold answers to Bold Prayers we refuse and do not dare Pray to God.
I dont know what is yours.
Its usually different for each one of us.
Our comfort zones comes in many shapes and sizes. But its like a boat much like in Peter's story. It will definitely keep you safe from the waves and wind. But it will also make you "dry" and forever wondering what would it feel like if I stepped out of it.
Its usually different for each one of us.
Our comfort zones comes in many shapes and sizes. But its like a boat much like in Peter's story. It will definitely keep you safe from the waves and wind. But it will also make you "dry" and forever wondering what would it feel like if I stepped out of it.
Most of the time they are our Fears and doubts. We become so comfortable with it we became friends with our fears and even eat breakfast with them and go to sleep with them everyday.
DID WE MISS SOMETHING?
We miss the miracle.
We miss the opportunity to walk on water- to experience something that Jesus alone can do in our lives.
We miss out the best TESTIMONIES among the waves and winds.
We miss the miracle.
We miss the opportunity to walk on water- to experience something that Jesus alone can do in our lives.
We miss out the best TESTIMONIES among the waves and winds.
But as for me it would be missing out on getting closer to Jesus and being where He is.
All my life ever since God saved me was a journey of running after Him. Anything and anywhere and anyhow just to take one step closer to my Saviour.
If someone would ask me why I did what I did 7 years ago to pursue what God called me to do, it was because I heard His voice. I didn't want to lose that. I didn't want to lose that connection.
So I pursued it. And it seems as I respond to one call, I get a little bit more closer to Him. But He walks again ahead of me, so I follow Him again. And again and again. Maybe it would be a never ending pursuing until I get to Him in Eternity.
Many would always point out that Peter doubted and he sank.
Yeah yeah.
Yeah yeah.
I don't disregard that part. But if you read in the Gospels, who was the only one out of Jesus 12 disciples who walked LITERALY ON WATER JUST LIKE JESUS?
It was only Peter.
It was only Peter.
He might have doubted but he was the only one who dared.
I don't want to live my life sitting in my boat- dry and very safe. I would rather walk on water and experience how Great my Jesus is as He calls out and says, "Take courage! For I AM HERE!"
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