"The Kingdom Agenda".
That would be the main topic for the Month of November for the Kabacan Ministry. last Sunday, November 6, 2011 we discussed the Kingdom of Heaven likened to the "Seeds and the 4 Soils."
The Kabacan team decided to have a one topic just like in BCC. Almost all of us are receiving many revelations regarding the Kingdom of God being here on earth. Bringing God's kingdom here on Earth. We also discussed "duplication'". How to duplicate the culture of BCC in the Satelite Ministry. But more than duplicating it, we agreed on RIGHT duplication. since I was the one who was going home for good, I was assigned to monitor this. hmmmm...(Lord Help me..)
The Kingdom Agenda...hmm..I already preached last week and most likely I'll be the one this coming Sunday. I'll be doing the 3P's-PAW, Preach and Pepsol. (Yeah Lord!Gamit na gamit ako ni Lord!)
No wonder every after Sunday afternoon I'm already asleep. Thank you Lord. Blessed to be used like this.
But lately I'm struggling. I'm very used to for 1 year working myself and even having 10hours of work in a day. Then all of a sudden, I'm not doing anything. I', at home but why am I missing something? Why am I in my most comfortable place- food to eat, bed to sleep on, no rent, no fare but yet i feel like I'm out of my Comfort zone?. And I feel so alone. Alone. Alone. No one knows how it feels. There is this pain sometimes that I feel. Missing maybe. i don't know. Lately I've been spending more and more moments with the Lord. Not like the ones I had in Davao, but it's more intimate and silent. I don't even like using background music anymore while soaking. I'm soaking in His presence, just sitting silently and trying to hear His still small voice. And more crying out to Him. I don't know where to start. There is so much to do and at the same time less I can do, All I am doing is heeding your calling. I feel...worthless and useless and yet at the same time, I find my worth in Him and also my purpose. It's hard to explain. Maybe this is like the Parables of the Hidden Treasure and the Pearl "44 “The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field. 45 “Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. 46 When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it." Matthew 13.
i found it. The Kingdom of Heaven. I found it and in my eagerness I also did what the merchant and the man did. It's just the adjusting I'm having the hard time. And God is dealing with me. He keeps on reminding me of all I have to do. I have to sacrifice everything for He will appear in His true Glory. .. Help me Lord. I could not do this on my own. I am nothing compared to your calling. Yet you chose me before I chose you. So Lord, please..Tell me what to Do..Everything for your Kingdom.
That would be the main topic for the Month of November for the Kabacan Ministry. last Sunday, November 6, 2011 we discussed the Kingdom of Heaven likened to the "Seeds and the 4 Soils."
The Kabacan team decided to have a one topic just like in BCC. Almost all of us are receiving many revelations regarding the Kingdom of God being here on earth. Bringing God's kingdom here on Earth. We also discussed "duplication'". How to duplicate the culture of BCC in the Satelite Ministry. But more than duplicating it, we agreed on RIGHT duplication. since I was the one who was going home for good, I was assigned to monitor this. hmmmm...(Lord Help me..)
The Kingdom Agenda...hmm..I already preached last week and most likely I'll be the one this coming Sunday. I'll be doing the 3P's-PAW, Preach and Pepsol. (Yeah Lord!Gamit na gamit ako ni Lord!)
No wonder every after Sunday afternoon I'm already asleep. Thank you Lord. Blessed to be used like this.
But lately I'm struggling. I'm very used to for 1 year working myself and even having 10hours of work in a day. Then all of a sudden, I'm not doing anything. I', at home but why am I missing something? Why am I in my most comfortable place- food to eat, bed to sleep on, no rent, no fare but yet i feel like I'm out of my Comfort zone?. And I feel so alone. Alone. Alone. No one knows how it feels. There is this pain sometimes that I feel. Missing maybe. i don't know. Lately I've been spending more and more moments with the Lord. Not like the ones I had in Davao, but it's more intimate and silent. I don't even like using background music anymore while soaking. I'm soaking in His presence, just sitting silently and trying to hear His still small voice. And more crying out to Him. I don't know where to start. There is so much to do and at the same time less I can do, All I am doing is heeding your calling. I feel...worthless and useless and yet at the same time, I find my worth in Him and also my purpose. It's hard to explain. Maybe this is like the Parables of the Hidden Treasure and the Pearl "44 “The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field. 45 “Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. 46 When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it." Matthew 13.
i found it. The Kingdom of Heaven. I found it and in my eagerness I also did what the merchant and the man did. It's just the adjusting I'm having the hard time. And God is dealing with me. He keeps on reminding me of all I have to do. I have to sacrifice everything for He will appear in His true Glory. .. Help me Lord. I could not do this on my own. I am nothing compared to your calling. Yet you chose me before I chose you. So Lord, please..Tell me what to Do..Everything for your Kingdom.
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