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Disappointed

I hear you speak.
In a crowded jeep or street.
You tell me things, in my Secret Place,
As if we are face to face.

I sense you,
In the Stillness of time.
You make me feel emotions,
While reading between the lines.

I see you in a crowded street.
You are the Lame and Weak.
You are the Angry and the Hurt.
They are your Glory unrefined.

But I am saddened,
for the ones called turn a deaf ear,
the ones with seeing eyes turn blind.
and those who could speak become dumb.

Why do they refuse?
To hear the unrelenting Call.
Why do they turn away?
to let your Way.

I am hurt.
not for me but for you.
Outstretched,
you gave your life.
arms wide opened,
You let them in.
But they let themselves out.

"I love you"
You keep on telling me.
"My feelings for you is much to strong."
You keep reminding me.

God, Father.
Jesus, My Friend and Lover.
Why can't they see it?
Why can't they feel it?
Why can't they hear it?

Send me Lord to the Hurting.
Your Comfort be their Comfort.
Send me to the Angry.
Your Forgiveness be their Forgiveness.
Send me to the Hungry and Thirsty.
Your Food of Life be their Bread and Water.
Send me to the Weak.
Your Strength be their Strength.
Send me to the Unloved and w/o Purpose
Your Love, Compassion and Grace be their Life's meaning.

Lord, just send me..."I am here."


---- Today, I am struck ones again by my predicament. I'll be leaving in 1 month, after the endorsement of all the accounts I have to leave behind. I keep on asking God, "I will really leave the Corporate World? Is this really for real God?"...And ones again God would remind me of His Great Love, that His Death is an enough reason for me to Live for Him.
---- Last night was our Closecell @Mama Wengs Bhaus. We watched the movie, "The Encounter". I'm always overtaken by the scene (I've seen it 4 times already), when Jesus told them each "I love you". It's as if God is also telling it to me (Actually He is saying that to me w/ Every breathe I take), but it's the way He told them. He was like a- Father, Big Brother, Lover to me (Maka-inlove talaga Si Lord!!!).
---- Then Today, I see people who refuse that love, who play with it with so many excuses- shallow and questionable. People who take His love for Granted! Who listen to His words now then let it out the other ear.. My heart was aching all the while and I keep on asking, "Why?"... They treat you like you are Cheap God and it breaks my heart. And all the more I understand why I am here. God, you have enlarged my heart don't you? Because of your love...You made me more patient, loving and compassionate...God...My Lover....My Friend...." I love you."..."I Love You"..."I Love you.."
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